My name is Maria and I'm freeloading from my parents until I start University｡I like K-POP, J-POP, C-POP, and almost every other kind of Asian POP. I'm mostly into Korean Hip Hop though. Feel free to message me! I don't bite. Unless you ask!◕‿‿◕｡
DO YOU EVER JUST HAVE THE BIGGEST FUCKING CRUSH ON SOMEONE EVER AND YOU JUST KNOW IT WONT WORK BECAUSE THEY’RE TOO OLD OR YOU’RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR THEY ARE TOO ATTRACTIVE FOR YOU SO YOU PRETTY MUCH SPEND WHAT FEELS LIKE ETERNITY HAVING THIS UNEXPLAINABLE FEELING FOR THEM UNTIL IT RIDS YOU OF THE SMALL BIT OF HEART YOU HAVE LEFT UNTIL YOU FIND ANOTHER PERSON TO HAVE THE SAME SHITTY FEELING TOWARDS
do you ever get so disgusted with yourself, like you can not believe how stupid and thoughtless you are and it’s so frustrating because you keep telling yourself that you’ll do better next time but then next time rolls around and the same thing keeps happening and you end up in this pattern of mediocrity.
I dont like these feelings. I really hate having feelings for him. I know the type of girls he likes and I still get my hopes up when he talks to me. I should have learned by now that I cant ever have the happiness that I want.